Hello, there!
If you were wondering where the hell was I for the last I don’t know – 10 years? – answer is pretty simple and significantly complex. We had a baby!
Believe it or not, last year I was going through an emotional break down. These days they call it burn out. That is why I didn’t wrote anything here for months. I had a lot of troubles in my previous job, mostly because I wasn’t able to agree with stupidity (this is something I’ll tell you more later on). Meanwhile I had some health issues, and the very same day I got the sneaky feeling that everything is falling apart – I signed my resignation. Waiting for the results of my medical tests were pretty much the toughest days in my life. Really. It came out that I was fine, so I took deep breath and started a new job – different than the one before, in a different business direction, and most importantly – home based. I needed time to heal. I needed rest, for my body and my soul, so I signed a contract with the smallest salary ever and enjoyed the coziness of my living room and sofa. I was not in a mood to work in an office, with a lot of people around me. I wasn’t able to deal with people’s problems when I was not quite ok with mine. I took that decision knowing that I’m supposed to take care for my inner peace other than whatever everyone’s expecting from me.
And then, all of a sudden, I saw the positive result of my pregnancy test. It was September 17th.
I had some troubles during my pregnancy, I wont lie – it was not easy at all. However, in the middle of May, we received the biggest gift ever – our daughter Alice.
The last 6 months as of then were a real roller coaster for us. She was not quite what we expected and if I have to be honest, we were actually expecting something unreal like ‘Oh, yeah, we’ll sleep all night, she will be a good girl and will eat all the milk she is supposed to’. Unrealistic expectations is something we definitely should work on. By the way, this is what brought me here, and made me create this section – we have to work on several aspects of our now-being. We have to adapt. That’s what life is all about.
But why didn’t you wrote something for so long? Well, let me tell you for my ‘Having a baby starter pack’ (list could go on forever):
- forget about sleeping. I don’t even quite remember when I slept a whole 8 hours for the last time. Good days are the one where we have slept about 6 hours and at least 4 of them were straight. Bad days are something I don’t want to talk about it.
- do not even think about weight, good food and exercises. Delivery guy is your best friend now!
- free time? Dinner out? What a joke!
- the last time I did my hair, did my manicure or had a beauty procedure? Let me think about it… 2016?
- ‘patience’ is the keyword everyone is telling you as ‘the secret of parenting’. I say ‘Pass the vodka’
- you haven’t cleaned for 2 weeks, and laundry is enough to open a thrift shop? That’s ok.
- no matter how big your place is, there is no room for everything that comes with the baby. Things, and things, and tons of things… everywhere!
- forget about the budget. Just like the sleeping.
- forget about friends, adult talking or adulthood at all. You’re parent now. You know nothing!
- expect the unexpected.
- etc… more and more to come 🙂
Having baby makes everything different. It turns your world upside down. And you have to deal with it and be better every day.
So, here, in this section Life, I’ll try to better every day. For me, for Daniel, for Alice and for us all.